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It's no secret that the blogging community is now over saturated. In recent years, many other bloggers have written about how the community has grown and the hardships of trying to get noticed. You can scour the Internet that's filled with articles like "How to Grow Your Blog," "What You Should Know Before You Start Blogging," and "There Are Too Many Blogs That Talk About The Same Shit." When I started blogging in high school, I had no illusions that I would end up as an "influencer." If you don't know what that means, then I'm not sure where you've been the last few years. It's exactly what the word implies: people influencing others (whether it's in a good way or not, remains to be seen).

YouTube is the place to know understand how influencers affect people. The beauty community on the Internet is where people can easily see the affect it has on others. Most beauty gurus have codes in their descriptions or videos that rave about one product or another. Of course, it's up to the viewer to decide what is genuine or not, but when almost everyone is pushing the same product or brand, it can get tiring to see who is real and who is not.

But I'm not going to be writing about my thoughts on the ever growing beauty community in terms of different niches and how it affects people today. Today I want to address the pressure of creating great content and whether or not blogging is worth it anymore.

It's rough. 

I'm not going to deny that sometimes I take an event that happens in my life and try to figure out if I can spin it into some grand adventure. You read or watch bloggers going on amazing adventures for free almost all the time. They get free PR packages and are cherry picked for events. It can be maddening to see especially if you're new to the blogging world.

There are days where I ask myself: Do I even want to have a blog anymore? 

The answer to that is yes. But it doesn't come easy. I created this blog as a hobby. I didn't expect to become an "influencer" overnight or even in five years. When I started this blog, there was a lot of people making blogs and trying to be the next Bethany Mota, Meredith Foster, or Michelle Phan. Most of them give up in a few months because they can't handle the work. Some find genuine love for blogging. 

Blogging is definitely worth it.

However, I'm not going to sugarcoat everything I write anymore. It's taken me years to get to this point. I'm finally starting to become comfortable with exposing myself more on my blog. I have created a persona over the years of being slightly cold and cynical when writing blog posts. I want to be more open with who I am and what I like. Sure, I may lose a few readers once I start writing more geeky posts. I may even have no readers by the end of it. 

It's okay. As long as I'm staying true to what I write, I'll always be happy with what I post. My interests will change as I grow older and learn more about the world. Some categories will leave and more will be added. I'm excited to see myself grow in my blog posts.

What do you think about blogging? 


Hey everyone!

My time management skills have definitely take a hit whenever I'm out of school. On Tuesday, I thought it was Monday. At least that's not too bad right? A part of me wants to blame my lack of knowing what day it is on my inability to check the date consistently, but it might be because of my lack of interest.

I think I mentioned in a post a long time ago (and I'm talking, a year ago or so) that I have a mental illness. Or maybe I haven't mentioned that on my blog at all, and I was just thinking it instead of writing it. But the cat's out of the bag now. It's been about ten or so years since I've been diagnosed with depression. I might go into more detail about the hows and the whys once I can get around to figuring out how to explain it in simple terms. It's a work in progress.

It's one reason why this blog is falling on the way side lately. Summer makes everything worse as I don't have a strict schedule to adhere to. I end up falling into an unhealthy cycle that I've tried to break. It's not going too well. If I can somehow find the right schedule for me, maybe I can be more productive. It's an "if" though. I have tried numerous apps, but not a single one has helped me.

I have started to make an editorial calendar for the next two months. Here's hoping that it will help me in my endeavor to become a better blogger. There's no such thing as learning too much. Unless it comes to weird topics. And believe me, I have heard some weird things coming out from my teenage brothers' mouths.

What have you been up to this week? Have any tips for time management?


Hey everyone!

Yet again, it has been another slow week. One of the only exciting events that has happened to me was that I took a walk around one of my local lakes. I took my camera with me to practice my photography. It felt a little awkward to be walking around with it. The camera also felt like it was getting heavier every step I took which is definitely a sign that I need to gain a little more strength.

While taking the walk, I tried to center myself and sort through my feelings. Since I've been feeling hopeless lately, I knew that I had to reevaluate myself and my goals. Of course, I want to accomplish my summer goals, but I don't want to finish them and mess up my mental health. For now, I'm not dropping any of my goals. I'll most likely be adjusting them so I don't burn out.

Since I didn't do much this week, I'll leave you with a new song that I've been listening to lately. It's definitely going onto my July favorites post next month.

Thanks for reading! What have you been up to this week? Leave a comment down below!


Hey everyone!

June was a slow, long month. I ended up reading a lot of comics and listening to new music.


acne fighting face wash in spearmint, orange and green tea from tara lee naturals // I wanted to find a more affordable face wash than the


webtoon // The site in general has a lot of comics and makes it easier for creators to get paid. The Webtoon app easier to navigate than the Tapastic app also. 

siren's lament - webtoon // I love the art and the storyline. The concept of the sirens in this comic is interesting and there's a lot of twists and turns. I'm not sure who to root for in this one.

lumine - webtoon // This comic is only in the early stages of setting up the plot, but I already love Lumine and Kory. I'm excited to see where this comic goes.

trump - webtoon // Contrary to the name, it is not about political policies or the like. There is a bit of politics, but it's mostly about keeping a certain group of people alive and the politics of school. I've finished season one, but I haven't gotten around to catching up with season two and three.


don't mess with me by temposhark // I was scrolling through the Reverse!Pines tag on Tumblr and saw a few lyrics from this song. It's amazing.

hopeless fountain kingdom by halsey // I love practically every song off this album. Each song is different, but together they create a story. My favorites are Lies ft Quavo and Bad At Love.

biggie smalls - cupcakke // I've seen a few posts about cupcakke, but I hadn't listened to any of her songs since I'm not into rap. However, I fell in love with this song for its beautiful message. It doesn't fat shame or skinny shame women, and it actually takes about loving one's self without bringing others down. I definitely recommend it.

That's it for what I've been in love with in June! Thanks for reading. What did you love in June? leave a comment down below!


Hey everyone!

It was another slow week for me. I have been working on my resume, but I keep delaying on sending it out and finding a job. I'm sure there's a psychological reason for it, however I'm more concerned about my mental health than getting a job. For the past week or so, I've been using an app called Pacifica to track my daily moods. Practically every input is an "Okay." The only day where it was "Good" or "Great" was when I met up with some friends on Thursday. Spending so much energy with them has made me tired to socialize for the next few days. I honestly don't remember the last time I spent time with other people besides my family or left my room for so long. It's getting to the point where I know it will start hurting me mentally and physically.

I can't let it get to that point. So I have decided to be more proactive in getting treatment. Although I hate going to a therapist/psychologist/whatever, it's something that I have to take into consideration. I am due for a check up anyway. You would not believe how long it's been since I've seen a doctor.

In other news, I've started to learn Greek in addition to Irish and Spanish. It's a hard language to write as I'm not used to letters. I might learn how to write circular gallifray for writing secret messages and other fun stuff. It looks complicated, but there are a lot of different ways to write and read the language since it didn't have an "official" codex in Doctor Who.

Thanks for reading! What have you been up to this week? Leave a comment down below!


Hey everyone!

I didn't do much this week. I went thrifting for some new teacups for divining, but I ended up getting a large cup and saucer combination for making sweets and tea. There were a few teacups that I was eyeing, however I wasn't sure if I had space for them. I might go back for them if I can't find any teacups anywhere else.

I've been looking for shirts to turn into crop tops whenever I go out. Buying crop tops are usually a hassle especially since I tend to want a certain material or image, but can't seem to find them. The best crop tops are the thicker material shirts like cotton and such. Guy's clothing seems the best way to make a crop top that's not too thin and see through. Maybe I'll go to Target to find shirts on sale to make crop tops in the next few weeks.

That's it for this week. Pretty boring right? I'm trying to get my summer goals done, but I holding myself back. I'm planning to just start something tomorrow so I can get some of them done by late August or early September.

Thanks for reading! How has your week been? Anything exciting happen to you? Leave a comment down below!